TGIF tomorrow!

had a really really bad day yesterday. if u've read my previous post, i said i was looking forward to wednesday's practical. HOWEVER, i'm so fked up with the practical cuz it's like, research based and you have to devise your own practical, what you wanna find out and your own protocol and blah blah blah. RESEARCH.

and bad thing was, i'm super hormonal and the things were like, thrown onto me just like that. my grpmates have already been thru this kinda practical so they know what they are supposed to do. so discussion beings, there's no conclusive title/hypothesis, so we are to go back and research articles. this is how it is supposed to be. first week just discuss and go research before going back nxt wk and come up with something conclusive. i was sitting there like an idiot, not giving any comments, just laughing at their jokes.

when practical ended, i was so depressed i actually cried. my entire night was ruined, eyes were almost blinded, cuz i was so lost and i was so afraid that would affect my peer assessment.

today is much better. practical is what i would term p.r.a.c.t.i.c.a.l. although it is much more difficult in the sense that they teach the things (like a lecture cum practical) before you do hands on, so i'm actually a little lost cuz its like molecular genetics stuff, all the DNA denaturing then adding these and that. BUT they have a protocol, which u follow. THIS IS PRACTICAL. PROTOCOL, READ, FOLLOW, FINISH. at the end the demonstrators/assessors will ask you questions on the theory la, but luckily i managed to scrape through, although now still a bit blur.

i still have a tutorial to do for tomorrow. the fked up thing is, i have to type it out on the word document provided and PRINT it out, so they mark you on the things u have printed and any handwritten stuff are just notes for your own reference.

i prefer old school. you give me tutorial, i use my pen and my right hand to write and left hand to hold the paper down.

there's so so so many lectures i need to take time to read through and digest. the speed is fast, and the material is difficult, i'm having a hard time here. i know i must work hard, but sometimes the determination can't sustain long enough.

after all the money spent on me.................sigh.
i shall do what i'm supposed to do la.

on the lighter note, i realised quite a handful of poly mates are actually attached. it's so sweet to know that nearing the end of poly life or after poly, people get together.
the singles? don't despair. the one will eventually come. just don't rush into it.

take care everyone=) i will not commit suicide no matter what. ha ha ha.